Currently Listening Stop All the World Now By Howie Day see related

So today is a better, brighter new day. The way i see it.... every day is brand new, and with every bad situation comes good opportunities. Life can hurt sometimes, but if you look @ things in the light instead of the dark, you might see things in a brand new clearer view. YOU choose the way you look at things. Fall down, but get back up. Lately ive felt lyke i keep falling flat on my face and gravity keeps me on the ground, and everything is spinning around me But.. its no way ta live. We're no supposed to live our lives on the floor. I'm learning ta force myself get up, and p u l l thru. As hard as it is. When i keep getting knocked to the ground, there is always ppl ta help you get bak on your feet. And for those of you who have been helping me.... i thank you.

So.. i slept in this morning and then realized that my alarm never went off and i hadnt finished my hw so my mom sed i could stay home for a couple hours n' finish it cuz im so tired of going to mrs. bock saying i didnt do ittt... and all this craaap. I just feel lyke an idiot and on top a that shes so nice about it & understanding and she knows crap is going on - i just couldnt do it today tho. The past few days have just been horrible ...and im drained from it all. Lately i cant even focus on skool @ all, its just been too hard...and ya kno.. sometimes ya just have ta worry about yourself........and stop trying ta act lyke u got it all tagether when in reality you dont.

Aanyways, something else happened this morning just when we thought we could now move on and relax, and not have to worry. Then my mom didnt want me n' erin home alone so we went out to breakfast w/ her and her friend marty. But uhmm got locked out of the house and forgot the keys to the car so marty had ta pick us up and after eating breakfast and coming home we had to break into our house through our back window.

What a morning !! - and i never went to skool after that I think i just needed a day and i kno everyone knows why im not there. whatever, i dont care. Everyones bound to find out anyways....

But Ya kno you always think.....i never thought this would happen to me? yeah......

Its lyke... i can be so strong and swallow the hurt, and anger for so long. Until suddenly i cant avoid it anymore and it all comes crashing down on me.

 kristin thankyou so much for coming into the bathroom and dunken donuts and just giving me a hug and letting me cry on your shoulder. And thanx for letting me cry to you last nite. I thank God for you, cuz i dont know wut id do without you. I love you SOO much.

lyke things couldnt get any worse... i came home and found out that my dog brandy died today.

She was a good dog, she lived a long life & she will be missed.R.I.P brandy. 1996-2006 i love you.

-Though i feel lyke im going thru hell......im thankful for a lot. And im especially thankful for my friends, coach, n' mrs. inlow, & mrs. bock -its you guys that help pull me thru this each day. i love u guys so much.

I just wanna say...thanx ta my closest gurls.- kris, jacks, linds, mira n' ali for being here for me thru everything & having my BAK nomatter wut. Knowing i can run to any, and all of you, is such a comfort in itself. I love you gurls MORE than you know.

[forjustthismomenticanbreatheagain&icanleavehereandbeawayforalittlewhile]

off ta work 4 5.... ill be bak after 9.

I'll just be watchin the super bowl in the bar!

About You
Eye Color:: brown
Hair Color:: redish brunettish blondish
Height:: 4ft 8
Favorite Color:: pink 
Screen Name:: mare890
Favorite Band:: jagged edge
Favorite Movie:: johnny english
Favorite Show:: i dont really watch tv these days
Your Car:: u mean DREAM CAR? cuz i dont have one lol
Your Hometown:: tolland
Your Present Town:: tollandddd
Your Crushes First Name:: this isnt necessary
Your Grade::11
Your Style:: preppy vintage hollister abercrombie whatever
 . . Have You Ever . .
Sat on your rooftop?: not at my house 
Kissed someone in the rain?: no 
Danced in a public place?: LOVE it

Smiled for no reason?: yea 
Laughed so hard you cried?: yea
Peed your pants after age 8?: no

Written a song?: nope
Sang to someone for no reason?: yea lyke everyday when im being retarded
Performed on a stage?: yep 
Talked to someone you don't know?: yea 
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: yeah
Made out in a theatre?: no
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: no
Been in love?: --
Who was the last person to:
Say HI to you?: mom mama when i got home from work
Tell you, I love you?: kyle
Kiss you?: bobby! haHA i love him
Hug you? mira
Tell you BYE?: grammy
Write you a note?: prolly lindz
Take your photo?: deanna took a pic of me n' the cutest lil baby, araceli @ service projects this past wk.
Call your cell phone?: ali
Buy you something?: gram- she bought me dessert
Go with you to the movies?:my highskool
Sing to you?: probably onea my gurls at work bkz their crazy
Write a poem about you?: i donno ..prolly no one 
Text message you?: kyle?
Touch you?: o man
 . What's the last .
Time you laughed?:at work tonite
Time you cried?: last nite
Movie you watched?: ...i forget
Joke you told?: i dont even try
Song you've sang?: keshia cole "love"
Time you've looked at the clock?: 11o'clock on the dot
Drink you've had?: water 
Number you've dialed?:ali
Book you've read?: something gay 4 amer hist. i forget the title
Food you've eaten?: omg cheesecake brownie sundae HECK YeeA it was freaking AmAZing
Flavor of gum chewed?: big red
Shoes you've worn?: black work shoes -gross
Store you've been in?: prolly a&f
Thing you've said?: "tigers calling mom!" lol
Can You .
Write with both hands?: not at all
Whistle?: barely
Blow a bubble?: yes 
Roll your tounge in a circle?: yea 
Cross your eyes?:nope
Touch your tounge to your nose?: no- why would i WANT to
Dance?: -i hate this question. I LOVE to dance, idk if im gooood but. u kno
Gleek?:wth
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: yea 
Speak a different language?: some spanish lol 
Impersonate someone?: johnny english... although... hes way too amazing to begin with. why should i try to be him. (H)i meannnnn
Prank call people?: not in awhile
Make a card pyramid?: no? 
Cook anything?: i try... lol
. Finish The Line .
If i were a ...: bird, id fly far far away from here.
I wish ...: i had my freaking LICENSE
So many people don't know that ...: theirs alotta things that tear me up inside- alot that brings me down- and i think about..things all the time
I am ...: real
My heart is ...: heavy